Splash No. 231 - Good Kind of Tired
Good Kind of Tired
It’s absolutely impeccable how many ways a person can be wrong about themselves. Last week, I wrote about. And this week, some of my coworkers have flown in from the other offices to work together and collaborate. As a result, my week has been filled with team dinners and scavenger hunts and various activities to encourage team bonding and maximize the face time we get together.
And just as you’d expect, I had felt trepidation leading up to the week — I felt overwhelmed since I was behind on some design work and we’d be focusing on building it out, and I felt nervous about going to team dinners and doing activities with folks that would interrupt the comfortable routines of day-to-day work. I’d just come back from traveling, so I had been looking forward to the humdrum workweeks to take me into the new year.
Three days in, I’ve experienced nothing like the boring days of work I thought I craved, as I’ve worked closely with my team to get a bunch of projects through the door, taking breaks by chatting with folks I nearly never see. With team events and more going on, this has felt like one of the busiest weeks I’ve had at work. And among that, there’s a significantly higher level of social interaction than I’m used to. Despite all of that, I’ve been feeling great, even as I fall asleep at 10:30pm from exhaustion.
As much as I’ve prioritized and thought about rest throughout my life, the last few weeks have reminded me how much action begets action and energy. Even though I’ve been a lot more active recently, I find that my total energy feels higher, even if I feel tired. And even tiredness feels different like it was earner rather than simply received, that there’s a point to the exhaustion. So perhaps this is a sign for me — to push myself towards action over rest more often, even if it’s just getting dinner with friends or more actively engaging with the people around me.
Drops of the Week
PLAYLIST - CHRISTMAS CITY POP - I'm not convinced all of these are Christmas songs, but it's a good playlist regardless
ARTICLE - "Every “chronically online” conversation is the same" by Rebecca Jennings - quick read about the nature of a certain type of online conversation and how insane they are
POEM - "The Origin of Birds" by Nicole Callihan - "And before the rib, being clay was enough. And before clay, just being earth was enough. And before earth, being nothing was enough."
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Tiredly,
Nikhil