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Jane Marie's avatar

this is very pisces/cancer coded ;)

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anniething & anniewhere's avatar

beautiful & tender, as ever. this statement: "I want this story to be more dramatic than it is, try to match the depth of feeling I reached that day... But it's the hope that hurts" cuts me to my core - i resonate with this on a lot of dimensions, the depth of hope

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Oreofe Aderibigbe's avatar

Oh, Nikhil, my beautiful fellow cancer. I know this cycle of hope and despair all too well. Thank you for writing this.

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Parker Gibbons's avatar

Felt

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Evelyn Shi's avatar

Finally reading this after we talked about it at writing club -- I admire your vulnerability and grace toward yourself for feeling your feelings! I also loved the opening scene of picking out flowers.

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nikhil's avatar

thank you!

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Danny Li's avatar

Seeing the thumbnail kinda hurts after reading

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Kathy Grey's avatar

I love that you keep feeling hope. It's a beautiful feeling. ❤️

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Iris's avatar

wondering if you've ever tried bookbear express's matchmaking? i've heard some success stories from it

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nikhil's avatar

yeah, i’ve met some folks from there, no dice so far

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e. e. e.'s avatar

was worried the poem was going to link to the ray bradbury short story 😳 but I feel this!

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