I've loved your writing for a long time, but omg!! YOURE A WATSKY FAN TOO?? Tiny glowing screens pt. 2 is like, my favorite song of his ever.
("There's seven billion forty-six million people on the planet
And most of us have the audacity to think we matter
...
The reason there's smog in Los Angeles, is because if we could see the stars
If we could see the context of the universe in which we exist
And we could see how small each one of us really is
Against the vastness of what we don't know
Then nobody would ever audition for a McDonalds commercial again") gahhhh he's god. i saw him live!!
Also, your notes about friendship!! I think there's something beautiful of oweing someone else; cus it's like a promise that you'll always pay them back, that there's a *promise* of a next time. In the same way, it's like someone still inviting you to things even if you say no, because then you can feel secure in the connection that you don't lose it just because you might be tired one day. And, how one of the hardest things abt living in the "real world" or even being in college is that we have to put in so much time to find friendships, to trudge across campus for just a 20 minute lunch, to text and ask where they are — but that's all so so worth it to be able to spend time with a friend. I wonder how we can create new friendships, and what it is that clicks between specific people that make the such immediate close friends.
it's all so vital, and it's never as easy as we wish it would be! creating new friendships is a lifelong process too, I think, one that never fully makes sense, which is part of the fun.
This reminded me so much of the warmth we feel in friendships after staying aloof, disconnected for far too long. Just like many of us, I too was, perhaps still am, in search of meaningful friendships to belong to. I wrote about something similar, a whole while ago, Nikhil. You might like reading this:
I can't explain how much I love this piece! From the meek but earnest hopefulness of wearing a branded hat in hope someone else will have an excuse to extrovert their way towards you, to the beautiful reflections, and the amusing imagery of seeing someone walking around town frowning with headphones of. I really love the framing of this as well: What was I before I learned to be a friend? -- It feels easy to forget you make friends and your friends make you, and the abundance of times I've thought "well, this is obviously what life really is all about" has always been in company of good friends who truly understand me on some meaningful level, and who I feel truly understood and actively formed by
I've loved your writing for a long time, but omg!! YOURE A WATSKY FAN TOO?? Tiny glowing screens pt. 2 is like, my favorite song of his ever.
("There's seven billion forty-six million people on the planet
And most of us have the audacity to think we matter
...
The reason there's smog in Los Angeles, is because if we could see the stars
If we could see the context of the universe in which we exist
And we could see how small each one of us really is
Against the vastness of what we don't know
Then nobody would ever audition for a McDonalds commercial again") gahhhh he's god. i saw him live!!
Also, your notes about friendship!! I think there's something beautiful of oweing someone else; cus it's like a promise that you'll always pay them back, that there's a *promise* of a next time. In the same way, it's like someone still inviting you to things even if you say no, because then you can feel secure in the connection that you don't lose it just because you might be tired one day. And, how one of the hardest things abt living in the "real world" or even being in college is that we have to put in so much time to find friendships, to trudge across campus for just a 20 minute lunch, to text and ask where they are — but that's all so so worth it to be able to spend time with a friend. I wonder how we can create new friendships, and what it is that clicks between specific people that make the such immediate close friends.
thank you so much for your kind words + support!
it's all so vital, and it's never as easy as we wish it would be! creating new friendships is a lifelong process too, I think, one that never fully makes sense, which is part of the fun.
This reminded me so much of the warmth we feel in friendships after staying aloof, disconnected for far too long. Just like many of us, I too was, perhaps still am, in search of meaningful friendships to belong to. I wrote about something similar, a whole while ago, Nikhil. You might like reading this:
https://scurfofyesterday.substack.com/p/scurf135-friendships-as-aesthetics
I can't explain how much I love this piece! From the meek but earnest hopefulness of wearing a branded hat in hope someone else will have an excuse to extrovert their way towards you, to the beautiful reflections, and the amusing imagery of seeing someone walking around town frowning with headphones of. I really love the framing of this as well: What was I before I learned to be a friend? -- It feels easy to forget you make friends and your friends make you, and the abundance of times I've thought "well, this is obviously what life really is all about" has always been in company of good friends who truly understand me on some meaningful level, and who I feel truly understood and actively formed by
glad you liked it! 🙏🏽